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hm this weekend was actually..really cool. I got to spend a while with Brittany which was cool on friday. then chris picked us up from the mall..we stopped at neils to get something. then he took me to his moms boyfriends house cus it was her bday..and he took me home..saturday i had to work 7-3 and i came back home and laura came over around.. 4? we hung out with chris he went to gibraltar to get a new phone cover it looks sweet and i went tanning i wana go today i think i am my moms prolly takin' me. but yeah then he had to work at 7 so he dropped us off back @ my house at around 6 and then at like 6:30 me and mel and laura all hung out we went to Neils till about.. 8:30-9 and it was SO funny cus Ron and Aj were there.. and Gary 2wayed me and he was talkin shit to Ron and Ron was getting SO pissed and Ron was all shakin cus they were about to meet or w/e and fight which woulda been stupid so i was getting kinda pissed at Gary cus he wouldnt let it go then Aj got on the phone and was SO pissed so he just shut my phone off for me cus im incompotent and cant do it myself lol i<3aj. and so we were all watchin t.v and remembering stupid shit we all did haha Ron was being SO funny. he kept pulling the rocking chair i was sitting in back and he broke it! lol i feel so bad!! but anyways before we went to Neils i was talkin to neil on the phone and he said that Ron was comin over at like 730 im like hows he getting there? hes like walking from his work which is mr. pita. (remind you neil lives in dearborn heights) lmao so i call mr.pita and im like Ron we'll give u a ride hes like i have a bike im like haha hes like yea its NEILS MOM lmao!!! so he left it there inside his manager let him and we picked him up n took him w/us. haha too funny. he kept sayin IM RICK JAMES BIITCH! it was TOO funny. but yeah..he kept abusing me lol i have a bruise on my arm cus the last time he pulled the rocking chair and i landed on the sharp part lol oh well. its not too bad. im glad chris trusts me to go over there. hes great. btu anyways. it was just so funny over there.. they're seriuosly the best guys i know to hang out with hahaha..but ron started htiting his head and face and i wanted to cry lol i almost did start crying and gary wouldnt let me off the phone with him i was like omfg..and andrew just im'd me asking me to give him head and im so proud of myself that I have a lot more pride in myself..he was calling me a slut n stuff i realy dont care anymore considering I've changed quite a bit.. but yeah i spent the night at kortneys with laura and lexy. and i got back here today around 2. im home alone and my moms gona take me to mr.pita to eat. bleh.. stacey came over for a while about an hour and a half which was nice. havent hungout with her for a while. now im just waiting for mi madre to get home.. im out!
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ok well Saturdays plans are definately cancelled. kinda happy about that one. dont gotta babysit but anyways.. saturday i work f'in 7-3 which kinda sucks. whatev. laura's shadowing me friday. which should be cool cus shes moving. i guess melanie went up to brittany today and asked her if i was talking shit about her? and i guess she doesnt remember but we're supposed to be best friends and i would NEVER talk shit about her. but anyways. she got an attitude w/brittany supposively and was like "shes just mad cus i have another friend besides her and you" im like ok? considering that's NOT it. I'm mad cus when ever she finds a new friend she TOTALLY forgets about me. I'm sorry that my mom isnt like Mikols and lets boys come over in my basement till midnight and my mom doesnt let me stay out as late as her mom prolly would. sorry im not cool enough? whatever!!! i seriously just wish it all would end i hate how everything goes with this situation its happened before I KNEW it'd happen again i have no true friends cept brittany. and melanie acts all mad at me about it but ya know what mel? put urself in my shoes. you say you never have spare time to hang out with anyone but actually? you do. and when you do, you spend it ALL with Mikol. ..I'm not even mad i just wish you could hang out with me for once. and ur mom lets you do whatever with Mikol yet i've known you for 4 years almost and been best friends since and ur mom wont even let u spend the night half the time. i dont even care any more honestly. i wish we were still as close as we used to be im glad u have another friend besides me and brittany im happy for you honestly i just wish you wouldnt totally push me to the side along the way! geez..im not trying to sound mean its just you dont even know how bad it makes me feel. to know that i was just someone that u hung out with till something or someone better comes along. im glad u met a guy thru mikol and u hang out with him a lot too its ok u did the same thing to me w/colin im glad ur happy mel but just remember ive NEVER ONCE done that to you and never will for a guy. i miss you.
whatever im done bitching. i wish i had friends. and i wish i was loved.
ok.. just talked to melanie. everything's settled. scratch all that junk i wrote up there. im glad we talked mel i love u so much i hope i never lose u. uve been my best friend for 4 years n i hope it stays that way..
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I stayed home from school today..and mcd's called me and asked me to work 4-7 so i did. chris took me n picked me up! :-) and like idk i was so hyper at work haha i kept dancing and mary martin almost shit herself. too much drama up in that environment!! for real man. but anyways. friday im hanging out with melanie and brittany which is sweet considering i NEVER get to see melanie anymore cus shes w/nick and mikol a lot. but that happens most of the time any ways.. i miss her a lot cus she was like my sister but she never calls me any more..guess im not as cool as mikol? whatev. this week. lemme tell ya. its been terrible. ive cried everyday.. im just too emotional i need some medicine i think. i just hate myself. i hate my social life *especially now considering my friends dont include me anymore* and i REALLY hate school. the one thing i love is my mom. thats about it. life sucks right about now and i have no idea i just feel so sick with all this shit.. forreal.. tomorrow's a half day which excites me cus i dont have to FUCKING work out in gym. thank you god. idk what im doing tmw except im hanging out with the one best friend i havent lost yet.. brittany. saturday i gotta babysit my uncle larry's kids w/laura. which is cool. kinda. lol. well.. I'm gona get going.. ttyl..
<3Claire.
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| This is my <3bleeding b4 you.. This is me down on my knees. these foolish games r tearing me apart.. |
[14 Mar 2004|03:33pm] |
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well saturday night I felt the usdden urge to go up to mickey d's to bitch julie out for asking chris to come up a halfhour early to see her fuckin tongue ring im like uh wow can we be sluts? but thats all cleared up now SUPPOSIVELY im still pissed n shes my girl still but ive lost all respect and trust for her. im just glad brittany and mel would never do that stuff to me. anyways. on a diff. subject, crystle kept getting sick during work and i felt SO bad. shes REALLL little.lol. me n chris are friends again now.. which is good, i hope. i gave him a hug last night @ work..i couldnt really help it. I called Derek today, he was doing homework tho so I let him go... I'm REAL tired and Im bout to pass out and I need to find out my schedule. oh well. im out tho ttyl
i miss michelle maddox :-(
<3Claire
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[11 Mar 2004|04:44pm] |
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well today kinda sucked i peed at least twice in each of my hours. I have a slight bladder infection i had to go to the doctors today to make sure.. trever took me cus hes my BEST FRIEND! thx trever :-) but yeah so i have a slight one so i gotta get my medicine. i wanted to hang out w/brittany tonight b/c i can't get ahold of her. i want to spend the night there tonight if our parents will let me. lol but yeah.. today i dont have much to say so this entry's gona be kinda short. oh yeah.. crystle grubbs i love u ur my girl!! shes the most awesome person ever. thanks for last night!! she makes me feel better. chris is gay.. he likes her now but crystle and i's friendship has suprisingly became stronger by that. so im glad. but yeah.. im bored and hungry so ill ttyl!
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[09 Mar 2004|06:06pm] |
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I started talking to Derek again.. which is awesome. we're married.. hehe. i love ya derek. I broke up with chris.. i told him i wanted to stay friends.. i dont think he took it too well.. i guess we'll see how it goes.. :-\..he'll prolly end up dating julie or she'll like him. NOT MY PROBLEM ANYMORE! not like i could stop her before. whatev. anyways. I went to the mall with mi madre today. I bought 300$ worth of shit @ buckle.. lemme tell ya how much that is. i only have to give my mom about 50-100$ back. oh well.. and im getting about 2 thou. put in my bank account.. so thats fer a car!! I'm bored. my grandma lets me smoke now. and i went in the backyard and did it. and my cousin lectured me for at LEAST 20 minutes. (tony).. cus "he smoked for 4 years and it was the WORST habit for him" as he claims. whatev! so I plan on having fun considering i'm single now and all :-D. but i have to be careful b/c im married. lol. im gonna go eat some spinach pie. KYLIE SHIT HER PANTS!@!!!! hahahaha
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[07 Mar 2004|08:08pm] |
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So I don't have mono. nor am I anemic. so that's good news!.. im havin' a little trouble over here. lol. things are gettin too heavy for me to handle. I've been REAL good on practicing abstinence. no NOTHING. just kisses. cant let go of those. untill im old enough to really know what love is. My friend Matt's moving and hes only 17 and its kinda sad. but then i can see him more.. he has had a few troubles in the past and I try to be there for him. hes a good guy. love u matt!! good luck w/all that. Melanies kinda avoiding me or something? she doesn't really talk to me all that much anymore. shes always with Mikol. so I dont want to interrupt her or anything. not like she cares about me. She asked me to go with her car shopping on Tuesday. But she prolly asked Mikol and forgot she asked me. whatev.. it always seems to go that way though. guess brittanys the only one i got left. since im not cool enough to introduce you to other guys..?
<3Claire
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[03 Mar 2004|11:59am] |
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hm.. i'm a confused person right now lemme tell ya! but it'll all work out sooner or later. my mom thinks I have mono. I think she's stupid. my throat doesnt hurt im not sure my glands arent swollen im just always tired? so she might make me stay home the rest of the week..oh well..I think Kortney's mad at me? but I'm not quite sure. She alerted me last night at like 1 and I was sleeping so I called her back all this morning and she finally responded just now and says shes at work and has to call me back? so I don't know but whatever..I have a new obsession with Britney Spears. I want a new phone. mines a piece. I feel so tired I just want to go to sleep but I can't .. no one was really online today cept Chelsea. thats why I'm glad whenever I stay home I always kno chelsea can talk to me lol.. Ron im'd me too.. I forgot I deleted his s/n..I guess him and Jessica aren't going out anymore ..sucks.ha. I'm so tirrrrrrreeeeeddd!! ugh.. I kinda don't want to stay home this whole week cus then I can't go out.. so I think I'll go back friday at least. I have a note to get out of gym class till friday.. but I want to see if I can change it. :-D well I'm out.. talk to you later.
<3Claire
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| Tell me what u thought about when u were gone&so alone the worst is over, YouCanHaveTheBestOfMe... |
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yeah.. that's pretty much true..::sigh::
on a better note.. me and chris are going back out.. things are better.. but i still think there's soemthing really wrong with me that I need checked out. im not even kidding. hm sigh..well i'm goin.. cya.. i guess i'll try n write more, more often..
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| We grew up way too fast, now there's NOTHING to believe..all reruns become our history..* |
[11 Feb 2004|06:57pm] |
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:-\ hmm.. well.. Tuesday.. me and Chris broke up.. kinda an agreement. i wanted to break up with him first but he knew i didnt wanna be with him by the way i was acting so .. yeah.. im kinda sad cus he was really good to me ya know? he was prolly one of the best bf's i've had. hes such a nice person but its just i dont think i need a relationship right now.. its kinda just too hard for me to handle cus i have lots going on ya know i dont know.. maybe im just stupid and immature to handle this... that could be it too.. but i think its really immature that he bitches and whines for his sweatshirt back.. which i planned on cleaning today but he calls me with like 3 other girls and hes like, im picking my shit up so i threw it all on the porch n the girls were being bitches and obnoxious and was honking the horn n shit.. i love immature people.. but it made me realize that obviously he doesn't care if he doesnt even have enough respect for me to tell them to stop. fucking ugh! idk.. i wish i didnt have such immature ex boyfriends.. but this ALSO, made me realize how annoying iwas to andrew whenever we broke up i was always like "oh pleeeeease im sorrryyyyy this is soooo hard" and now im like wow i moved on life moves on ROLL WITH THE F'IN PUNCHES MAN!! so im sorry andrew, lol. anyways. i dunno i have soccer conditioning friday and all next 2 weeks which SUCKS! a fat one. oh well.. im gonna go though b/c i need something to occupy my time. anyways. I like this boy.. Ive known him since 8th grade. ha. hes so cute but the age may be a problem!! oh well..maybe one day he'll realize 3 years and some months aint so bad? right? :-\ im out though i need some sleeeeeeeeep im sick!!!
<3Claire
I'm not a perfect person, as many things I wish I didn't do. But I continue learning, I never meant to do those things to you. and so I have to say this before i go. That I just want you to know, I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new, and the reason is you.. Im sorry that I hurt you. Its something I must live with everyday. and all the pain I put you through. I wish that I could take it all away. and be the one who catches all your tears..thats why I need you to hear. Ive found a reason for me to change who I used to be a reason to start over new, and the reason is you*
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ok.. well i've just come to realize my life officially sucks. i hate the way things are.. i love chris, dont get me wrong. but its like hes SO much different than i am i think that has to do with a lot i mean look at the guys i used to date? like mark n andrew.. idk.. its so weird cus like.. i miss being single too sometimes.. but like i dont wanna lose chris.. but then again its like i want to take breaks but im not sure if i want a break or not.. i get so confused!! grrr.. its just weird like the way he dresses.. like.. is so different than how i do. or even did. thats what bothers me which isa stupid reason yeah i know.. but idk it matters to me.. and i dont like being tied down till im married ya know its hard to even think about that cus its such a long time from now and i cant possibly imagine being with someone for sooo long omg id shoot myself. id end up cheating on someone after a while.. i think if ppl break up they break up get over it but if they end up back together then they do.. ive learned since past relationships that you just gotta roll with the punches and take it as it comes one day at a time.. ya know? even tho its hard to face the truth or hard to face what happens.. you have to.. you have to move on cus life moves on whether you want it to or not ... yeah but idk.. im just confused right now cus i think sometimes its better to be single cus i used to be able to do WHATEVER i want with WHOEVER i want .. grr.. its hard.. plus all my friends are single cept like 2.. idk.. i just hope i enjoy my high school years and find taht perfect one when im ready to be tied down... someone help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee grrrrr!!!!
love u chris.
<3Claire
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well yesterday was SO great. chris came in thru drive thru and just outa nowhere hands me a dozen roses. im like AWWW!! and yeah.. we went out to eat at Logans.. mmm yummy! and then we went to the mall and drove around for a bit. then picked up brittany and me ehr and chris and his cousin went sledding.. then today chris drove me to neils so i could get something from him real fast. then we went back to his house n hungout. i was glad i got to go sledding w/brittany too tho. it made me glad. hahaha fun times.
*Christopher Michael Greenwood. i miss you more than ever. i never thought id have to lose a best friend and then BOOM.. you're gone. i love you more than life can ever let anyone love someone. i will never, EVER forget the times you held me and helped me. you were my best friend and still are. no matter the distance. i love you with all my heart.. you took a part of it with you. babyboy i love you . lifes so boring without you here with me.. :*(
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[14 Jan 2004|03:43pm] |
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aw..i like all those except incubus..but i really couldn't think of another one.. anyways
so today was good chris picked me up from school then we went up to little caesars to see korteny n me n kortney are hangingout today with laura. so tahtll be fun...old times.. chris took me out to dinner at olive garden..and i just realized, that ive never truly been on a date before untill i started dating chris lol ..cus my bf's were cheap asses. but anyways. hm..im doing MUCH better in my classes..cept math :-\ o well i'll try to get it up as fast as i can.. well im leaving! cya
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nobody ever comments in my journal anymore.. and it makes me SAD!!
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yepp that test is pretty accurate! anyhoo..i hung out with chris from like 1230 to 4 today.. we ran a few places, got a few things for his car..then i decided since we had nowhere to go we'd stop by my grandmas.. well no one was home..but i have a key to her house.. so i decided we'd just go in anyways so we stayed there for about 20 minutes or so.. thats a day i sure wont forget haha.. but yeah..i love him! hes so great.. i got to hold brittanys brother the other day.. hes sooo cute and soo little aww!!! and i talked to greenie today!!! he got to Tennessee okay, hada little trouble on the way but he made it haha and hes comin back in the summer!! WOOO HOO!! i was cryin on the phone..i never thought id ever have to lose my best friends.. and it happened..and yeah.. today was okay... but my neck raelly hurts man its so sore.. i think i sleep weird..cya
iloveyouChris
<3Claire
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well today i had to work from 11 to 630 so it wasnt that bad and it wasnt busy at ALl so that was good. then chris came in and picked me up from work and i got ready and hung out with Tracy and Hilario and Chris and we saw Mona Lisa's smile it was good.. it ended at like 10-30 then we went to denny's to eat it was yummy :-P then it was already 1130 so he has a curfew by law at like 12 so ..yeah. he just left.. but yeah i've never been happier ..seriously..like i was just sitting there in the movies and he had his arm around me and i just looked at him and im like.. ''ive never been happier'' and i truly havent in so long..i thought i was happy with andrew and there were times where i really was..but its like you think you love someone then you get into a new relationship and you realize that you really weren't in love as much as u think you were..and that it IS possible to love again, even stronger than before.. so yeah im happy thats all i gotta say :-D anyways im tired..im gonna talk to chris for a while on the phone then go to bed..and hangout with him tomorrow too!! hehe
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hmm...well today was good..boring but good.. im finishing my report, i finished most of it in detention.. so thats good..chris picked me melanie and michele up so that was nice, and he had to be at work by 4 and it was already 345 so i was thankful he came..cus i woulda had to walk home. hes so awesome.. but yeah..i was cleaning my room and i stumbled through some old photo's of me and andrew..and one i looked so happy in it..and then i remembered how unhappy i was with him..like i MADE myself believe i was happy..so i made myself look happy to others, but they erally knew i wasnt..i even thought i was happy.. soemtimes to this day i still think i was happy with him..but.. idk. i really loved andrew like more than my own life meant to me.. its just one of those things where it takes time to REALLY heal. cus I'm still hurt from all that..but some of it's my fault because i let myself get too wrapped up into that relationship and now i kinda distance myself from that again cus i never want to feel like that again.. this is kind of an entry where im pretty much going to spill the fuck outta my heart with no regrets what so ever. ok. so i met this boy, who made my head spin, made my world keep turning pretty much.. which was andrew.. he made my life complete, he made me smile, kept me going when i wanted to let go.. he was my reason for living during that time.. i wanted to make him happy in every way possible. and i just feel ever since that since ive been hurt and like.. battered so much from that relationship that i dont open up much because i mean, i love chris but i only love him with what i have left in my heart cus andrew pretty much took most of it away from me.. jake kinda did too because i really opened up to jake cus i was so hurt from andrew, and he really helped me see that ''after every rain theres a rainbow'' kinda thing.. then he broke my heart even more, and i stopped believing in that whole after the rain thing.. i stopped believing in love really.. im not blaming andrew, i dont think he meant for me to be this hurt over it, or lose my mind and lose sleep over this.. or cry as much as i did..but he did it, and it happened, and it hurts.. i've never been so hurt in my life and i know someones probably gonna comment saying shit like oh get over it.. but not many people understand, but most do..cus everyones been hurt.. at least once.....right?
:-/ eek..lifes gay sometimes.
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but on a different note, chris greenwood's leaving today.. my best friend..my brother.. the one i ran to when things got too hard and i didn't wanna go on..the one who told me everything would be okay.. im gona miss him so much and im sitting here crying like a little baby..its all just too much for me right now.. im really nto handling this well i thought i was gonna be okay but i'm not..i love him so much i'm so serious i dont know what im gonna do without him.. im gonna visit him as much as i can.. hes the bestest friend i couldve ever asked for and i cant believe ive been blessed with such wonderful friendships.. chris you mean the world to me and so much more, you're such a wonderful amazing lovely friend..ill miss you more and more every day.. i wish you werent leaving.. you're the most awesomest buddy ever.. I LOVE YOU NEEMS..god, im going to miss you so much.. you don't even understand what you are to me.. i love you <33
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worst fucking day ever..
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[03 Jan 2004|06:40pm] |
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oh man..havent updated in a while..i just realized around this time that i first started writing in my journal and it excites me haha. but yeah im about to go to the movies with greenie and brittany in a few mins. hes moving!!! :-( im so sad!! but we'll still see each other!!~ I LOVE U GREENIE LIKE MY VERY OWN BROTHER!!!!!<33 ..hm i went to Frankenmuth the other day with my lovely boyfriend <3Chris<3 and his family. they're nice people, and I LOVE HIM!! :-D hehe. really though, i have a good feeling about this one.. thank GOD! its about time.. he makes me feel so good..but i just wanted to write about how much i adore him cus hes awesome :-) i love u chris
<3Claire..*~
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oh my geez tonight was AWESOMEEEEE!!!! not just the presents but i got to see my grandma who is just so cool and like.. i dunno i just love her and then everyone i talked to was like MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! and omg i got to see andrew's mom cus my boyfriend and i were driving near there and he took me and we talked for about 10 minutes and wow i love her shes so great i really miss her.. i cried.. buit anyways.. just so everyone knows i have theee best boyfriend in the world. :-) i dont think ive been this happy in my life.. seriously this christmas felt complete and my life feels complete it just felt so good to just sit on my couch and be held.. knowing he WONT rush me into anything or make me feel uncomfortable.. i love it!! i met his family.. theyre nice people his moms really pretty too aw they seem like my family haha. his brothers so cute haha aww. hes the best boyfriend ever he takes me anywhere anytime he always pays for me ugh i just <3 him!..and i knew from day one that we'd be together eventually and we are! and it seems like this ones gonna last..:-D he sits here and just stares at me in the car or w/e and hes like your beautifull.. and like he makes me feel so good about myself. no ones ever done that.. andrew made me feel like shit and didnt like my hair a certain way.. ugh hes gay and jake talked shit about me.. but idk hes just so different he holds my hand at the best moment and kisses me at the right time. hes awesome. :-D hehe!! im so happy.. but anyways.. i'm gonna go.. im tiiirreed.
brittany and melanie i love you girls. merry christmas :-D. hope u liked your presents. ur guys's friendships are enough for me..
<3u.
Claire..*~
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hmm..I haven't written in here for a while due to the fact windows xp is a piece of shit and we had to erase every damn thing on my computer... anyways. I went to the doctors today, they said i still have manic bronchitis, and boy does it hurt. i think i might die. I thought I had pneumonia. but i guess not. im on like two different medicines, and they're strong as fuck, considering im ammune to most anti biotics now, considering i've taken so many lately. umm..then!! the best part. this boy that i work with, his name is chris, asked me out wednesday. well let me tell you, he is the best boyfriend i've had by far! hes so sweet, he bought me a slurpee and brought it over to my mommy cus i was sleeping and i woke up and it was there i was like :-o! ur the coolesT!! hah. i made him watch finding nemo the other day, i think he got a little bored but I DONT CARE!! hehe. oh my god i feel as if i'm gonna throw up. everytime i cough, i cough so much that i feel as if im gona shit my pants or throw up both my lungs at once. sorry thats a little gross but im serious. oh damn. I've had to call off work 2 days in a row, and i have the next 3 days off anyways..so that's good. I'm glad i at least got sick during break cus if i miss anymore school im gona be on audit.. oh weLL! im so sore. and i cant stop coughing man..I have a HUGE kink in my neck, i've done nothing but sleep for the past 3 days, i hadn't eaten anything for 3 days up untill an hour ago, I've drank nothing but Gatorade and Slurpee's..my piss is like clear cus Ive drank too much fluids.. oh geez!.. anyways. I'm gonna go lay down again..before I die.
<3u.
Claire..*~
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